squ33k_t0y
06 May 2006 @ 11:40 pm


Yeah ^^;; I don't update all the time anymore, but when I do it's personal things, and I don't want that type of stuff out for everyone to read >< But if you do read my journals feel free to add me! O.O I'll add back!

I'm putting everything from October 5th and up under friends only.
 
 
squ33k_t0y
02 October 2005 @ 02:11 pm
I need to update this more o.o...

Okies weeeeell today I want to go to Springfield Mall so bad! >.x But my mom is resting right now sooo I have to wait x.x

MUWAHAHA! Sooo..umm..on Friday I went to Borders and bought a CD by The Junior Varsity...pretty good XD But I'm more obsessed with the little DVD it came with o.o It has music videos from other bands with Victory Records I think...but anyways! There is this song by Silverstein called "Smashed Into Pieces" that I really like o.o Along with some others...but I donno if I'll be able to find their CD sense they're a realitivly unknown Canadian band ><;;

Sorry for the rant! ^^;; Music makes me happy happy o.o...and I felt like updating! xD

...so many CDs I want to buy...u.u;;
 
 
Current Mood: anxious
Current Music: Letters to You - Finch
 
 
squ33k_t0y
30 September 2005 @ 05:03 pm
Icon from:[info]__scarxlet! =D
 
 
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: Give 'Em Hell Kid - My Chemical Romance
 
 
squ33k_t0y
24 September 2005 @ 11:05 am
Lets see...well! Pat has has been sick for a really long time. Yesterday I was talking to him and he told me he got his blood test back, and it turns out he has Mono O.O

He says he thinks he got it from his sister who got it from her friend. Lol, but if he's had it for longer than he thinks and didn't know about it (like no symtoms) then there is a chance that I have it toooo ^^;;;;

Soooo yeah...o.o Let's hope I don't though ^^;;
 
 
Current Mood: parinoid
Current Music: Something - Lasgo
 
 
squ33k_t0y
21 September 2005 @ 04:17 pm
I did it! I finally brought it up and I'm really happy I did, because I feel a lot better now ^^

But now he wants me to make a decision that I would rather not think about right now..>
 
 
Current Mood: blah
Current Music: Listen to Your Heart (Hardbounze Extended Mix) - DHT
 
 
squ33k_t0y
09 September 2005 @ 04:36 pm
This isn't much fun because I don't have many LJ friends...but yeah!!:

Took it from Mike by the way....XD

1. Go here.
2. Pass it on.
my answers! clicky! n________n )
 
 
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: Rakuen - Do As Infinity
 
 
squ33k_t0y
04 September 2005 @ 08:34 pm
*screams!!!* Pat may be coming here before Christmas!!!!!! I'm so excited!!! =D I shouldn't get my hopes up TOO high because it may change...but I really, really hope he can >< I guess (according to Pat) PM found a new girl, and she lives here in Maryland! =D! Lol...he moves on fast o.o But it's good that he's happy! ^^

Ummm...today I was working on cutting out patterns for my Kagome cosplay and my mom called and told me Brooke was at the pool! (I haven't seen her in a looong time because she moved and stuff) sooo my dad took me to the pool and we went down to the river and me, her, her dad, and her friend, Carly went out on the boat, and we went tubeing! Fun fun! Annnd...is too lazy to post anymore!
 
 
Current Mood: hopeful
Current Music: Niki FM - Hawthorne Heights
 
 
squ33k_t0y
23 August 2005 @ 10:21 pm
Hi! Well! I'm back from Otakon!!!! ^^ I'm just sad it's all over..;-; As bad as I feel about sneaking around my parents, I think it was worth it ^^ I just miss Pat so much though..I really hope we can see eachother again soon...gaaah x_x I hate having to leave him because I don't know what to do with myself for a while afterwords, I just kinda mope around the house all day >< (that and I don't feel like it...I'm so achey everywhere for some reason..I feel like crap @_@) Annnd he hasn't been on to talk to all day >< (grr me for being clingy x_x) But usually talking to him about it will get me to feel better ^^;; (at least it did for last year)

Well, I guess all I can do is just appreciate the time I did have with him and look forward to next time ^^

Oh yeah! I also appreciate all my friends I was with for letting me be with Pat. I feel bad for not hanging out with you guys that much during Otakon, but it made me really happy that you guys understood why ^^
 
 
Current Mood: sore/lonely
Current Music: Saturday - Fall Out Boy
 
 
squ33k_t0y
07 August 2005 @ 11:01 pm
Hi everyone! Long time no..uh...post? o.o

Anyways! Things have been sorta overwhelming lately ^^;; It's sorta a long story, but I just hope it turns out ok soon..><

I'm really excited for Otakon to be here!! Yet, I'm also a little nervous ^^;; 1) for seeing Pat again 2) for the fact that I'll be around Pat and PM at the same time >< I think PM may have lost all interest in me finding out how old I was (I thought he knew o.o;; guess not >.>) but still >< I don't want to hurt anyone..I think I kinda hurt PM when I showed Pat the email..I apologised to him about it, and he said he wasn't mad, and he said he shouldn't have ever sent it in the first place. And I still feel bad about it >< Anyways! I'm still pretty confused about things ^^;; If I got into details it would be more confusing buuuut I don't think I should do that o.o;;

Anyways!! O.O; I'm done with ranting =P

On a better note! XD I went to Jennifer's house this weekend and we had lotsa fun with our roller bladeing really fast up on the curb and fliping onto the grass XD annnd our singing of the karaoke party thingy at the end of the Shrek movie...and our talking on the phone with her friend and them being perverted and trying to freak me out XD Taking over her brother Joel's computer and playing Stepmania (and him yelling at us when he got back home from work =P)...And umm...burning ourselfs trying to eat ramen with our hands at 2 in the morning? o.o Weee!! Fun fun XD
 
 
Current Mood: exhausted
Current Music: Better Off Alone (Club Edit) - Crizz Lee
 
 
squ33k_t0y
11 July 2005 @ 06:23 pm
Sorry I haven't been updating much ^^;;

OTAKON IS GETTING CLOOOOOSER!!! =D

*dances*

Thats about it o.o
 
 
Current Mood: excited
Current Music: Cage - Dir en Grey
 
 
squ33k_t0y
01 July 2005 @ 02:44 am
I'm going to PA tommorow..er..today. o.o I would be more excited but there really is nooothing to do in the area I go to ^^;; O'wells, I guess it's good because I'm getting out of the house?!

Anyways, today was kinda weird.
Aaron called me, and we talked for a while, and then told me he liked me. It kinda surprised me because we have seen eachother a grand total 2 times, and talked (including those 2 times) 3 seperate times. ^^;; (he's the same friend I was talking about a couple entries ago who I saw at Hot Topic) Soo umm, I just kinda said "Aw.." and didn't really say anything...Sooo we talked more and he was really excited for the Otakon and for us to hang out and stuff and he was saying all these nice things...I didn't really want to tell him I had a boyfriend because I didn't want to make him feel bad, but near the end of the conversation he asked if I had one and I said yes, and then he got mad at me, and was saying "whenever I like someone they always end up having a 'boyfriend'" But I wasn't lying >< I guess he has a right to get mad at me for letting him go on but I don't know...So yeah...then he said he had to go because he was feeling depressed and yeah.. x_x I don't knooooooooooow... I feel bad though >
 
 
Current Mood: okay
Current Music: Memorise - Eisley
 
 
squ33k_t0y
27 June 2005 @ 12:37 am
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY
1. Kristine
2. A-tine (ah-teen)
3. Squeeky

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD
1. squ33k t0y
2. tine227
3. ph34r cu73 0n3s

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. my neck
2. my stomach
3. uuhh..^^;;

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. basically my whole body o.o;;
2. I'm not good with telling my true feelings
3. I'm very self-conscience

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE
1. Polish
2. German
3. Slovak (and a couple more..)

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
1. loosing the people I love
2. some sorts of change
3. Swamps XPPP

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS
1. music
2. my friends
3. internet

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW
1. a blue Inu-Yasha shirt!!!
2. a short black skirt with thin pink lines on it and bondages!!
3. black and white striped stockings XD (yes...I like mitch-matching =D)

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS
1. Psycho le Cemu
2. My Chemical Romance
3. The Pillows

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS(at the moment)
1. Slide - Plastic Tree
2. Reddish -DIVA version- DespairsRay
3. O Green World - Gorillaz

NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS
1. Being more myself around Pat again
2. Raving
3. Going on the metro by myself

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP
1. Love
2. Loyalty
3. Being able to have fun with eachother ^^

TWO TRUTHS AND A HALF-LIE (in no particular order) (comment and guess which one's a lie)
1. I love going to anime conventions
2. I have been to the Bahamas when I was little
3. I'm adopted, which is why I'm so differnt from my family

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same) THAT APPEAL TO YOU
1. Eyes
2. Hair
3. Hands

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES
1. Drawing
2. DDRing
3. Attepting to play bass ^^;;

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW
1. Talk to Pat
2. Go to Japan
3. Go to bass lessons so I can get better ^^;;

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING
1. Comic book artist!
2. Something to do with computers
3. Psychologest (sp? o.o)

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION
1. Japan
2. Europe
3. Maybe Califonia?!

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. Truely open up to someone
2. Be happy that I did everything I wanted to do in my life with no regrets
3. Get married to someone I truely love and they love me back

THREE WAYS I AM STEREOTYPICALLY A CHICK
1. I have boobs lol xDDDDD
2. I like to wear lots and lots of bracelets and chokers
3. I like romance (mixed with some comedy) movies, anime, and manga! ^^

THREE WAYS I AM STEREOTYPICALLY A DUDE
1. I love baggy pants XD
2. I'm trying to play bass
3. Most of my friends are guys

THREE CELEB CRUSHES
1. I don't
2. have
3. any...=.=
 
 
Current Mood: content
Current Music: Spirit Dreams Inside - L'arc~en~Ciel
 
 
squ33k_t0y
22 June 2005 @ 09:06 pm
I think my feet are shrinking...o.o;; =P

I went to the mall today! I was in Hot Topic and I saw a guy I made friends with earlier this year at MBP, but I didn't say anything to him because I didn't think he would recognize me...but! He was leaving and I was at the front of the store looking at some shirts and he was like "hi person I remember!" XD Sooo I hung out with him for a while with these other two girls he was with that were cool ^^ We played DDR and suff..it was fun XD He says he's going to Otakon sooo yeah!

I've been in a better mood lately ^^ Everything is ok between Pat and me sooo I'm happy ^^ But I think I'm hesitating a little when I talk to him >< it may take me a while to open up to him again...but thats ok ^^

I HAVE DECIDED TO MAKE A GOTHIC LOLITA COSTUME FOR OTAKON!! =D

That it all. o.o
 
 
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Slide - Plastic Tree
 
 
squ33k_t0y
12 June 2005 @ 02:58 am
Grr x_x I've been really sensitive to things lately...I sucks ^^;; Like, everything makes me feel bad. >< I don't like being like this. I want to be strong again.
 
 
Current Mood: used
Current Music: Silent Wonderland ~Rem Sleep~ - Kow Otani (Haibane Renmei)
 
 
squ33k_t0y
08 June 2005 @ 08:45 am
Hi everyone! Well, yesterday was my last day of school! Wooooo!!! I was fun ^^ Let see, so on the way to school, our bus driver Debbie took us to McDonald's like she did yesterday, but today I didn't buy anything there because I already ate breakfast. Theeeen when we got to school, I went up to Paschal building because I had to give a note to the attendence office or else I wouldn't be able to take my last exam ^^;; So! I did that, and then walked down with Stephanie to Xaviar building (we had a lot of time because on our exam days school starts 20 mins. later) Annnd sold another book back and then walked next door to the cafeteria and MK and Lindly were there sooo yeah, I hung out with them and Lindly noticed we both had chucks on so she changed into her chucks XD (everyone was out of uniform today because it was the last day) Then MK and Lindly switched a shoe with eachother so both of them had on purple silky oriental chuck (MK's) and the other had grey with cookie monster and stars shoe laces (Lindly) XD Then I saw Brandy and went over to her to say hi and then came back. Sense it was almost 8:30 all 3 of us started to walk to our exams. MK is a junior so she was she was able to have studio...darn you MK!! =P So for her final she had to draw something they had in the front of the room. Soo Lindly and me went downstares with her (we also had a class in Rupert) and we raded her artwork =P Annd we found this mid pizzle thingy and it was really fun to look at! O.O So we stoled-did it from her and looked at it walking up to our exam...and we both managed to trip up a flight of stairs XD Soo we went to our church history exam annd took that. Everyone got done about 45 mins. early! O.O It was really easy, because she repeated the questions over and over o.o But I'm not complaining! But it was boring afterwards because we couldn't talk or anything because of the other classes. Soooo here we are, Lindly and me amusing ourselves in the weirdest ways ever =P But anyways! Once it was over we walked down to the art room and stalked MK XD And then used our Jedi mind powers to bring her to the door...which we succeded at XD So after she came to the door we walked in for a while and looked at stuff then went upstairs in the bathroom so MK could change. Thenn we went to the lobby and found Amy. Lindly changed into some guy shorts out in the lobby, and then we left for Rom. Hall because Lindly needed to get her bass from the band room, but it was locked ^^;; So we went in the bathroom and Amy changed into some capries (sp? o.o) and a shirt Lindly let her borrow and then they were in there forever puting on makeup o.o So um, when they were done we went outside and walked around and stuff, and then we went to the area behind Rupert and there was the sophmore picnic (thats the reason I had to stay so later after school was over, he buses wern't aloud to go until 12:30 because of the picnic) Sooo MK had money and she gave each of us $5 to buy food...ILOVE YOU MK!! X333 Sooo we payed and then you can get all you want, so first we grabed a couple peices and a drink and went down to these diving boards set up like benches and ate, then we decided we should just take an intire pizza! >x] So! Me and Lindly went back up and took a pizza and went down to the tenis court to eat. Then other people came like Witney, Micah, Henry, this guy I didn't know o.o, Elizabeth, Stephen, and Anachristina, and we found this rope and then Amy and Lindly started to act all kinky o.o;; LOL! But it was really funny. Anyway! So when it was almost 12:30 we started to walk up towards the busses and then I saw Carly! Woot! She had cake o.o So walked up to the table and took some icing off the cake and left =P Then! Umm...saw people like Shannon, took her picture, saw Jennifer, took her picture, took a picture of Carly, took other pictures...and then said byes to everyone and then we were on our way! Oh, and before I got on my bus Whitney came over and poored a water all over me...which actually felt good =P Sooo umm when I got on the bus Tyler, Dan and Gabe asked if I wanted to play poker with them, so we did that until we got to Bert's. Stopped there so we could get ice-cream and Stephanie didn't want to get any because she had no money, but I told her I would buy it for her because I know she looooooves ice-cream XD Soo yeah, we got ice-cream and then left again, then when we got to our bus stop, we went to Burger King, and Cathy bought something and originally I wasn't going to eat anything but then she comes up to me and says "Arn't you going to get anything" uggggh...so I bought it just beause it looked good xP BUT! I got a kids meal! >XD Because 1. I wasn't really hungry and 2. Just to annoy Cathy XD. Sooo we got this princess Leya (sp?) toy, and when we were done we make movies with it on her camera XD They were sooo funny o.o I took out another toy I got from there...the sand guys...(I brought it because I was going to show it to Jim) and we made more movies o.o And then we got bored and took Stephanie's eye liner (pink and black) and drew all over her face >x] Then we took a picture of it o.o Lmao it look sooooooo funny!! XDDDD Then when Andrew came he boght something and the cashiers told him that we were being way too loud =P But anyway! So! We dropped Cathy off, then went to the comic book store, and I didn't really want to go home so I went to Stephanie's house...and got sick o.o I ate too much today and they were all a mixture of bad things ><;;;;;;;;;;;;; So um! Around 6:30 my mom picked me up...went home...and yeah! The End!! Bye bye freshman year!

Sorry it was so long ^^;;;;;;;;
 
 
Current Mood: relieved
Current Music: XO - Fall Out Boy
 
 
squ33k_t0y
30 May 2005 @ 03:16 pm
Okies! Sooo I shall tell you what has happened this weekend!

- Friday, went to Andrew's graduation

- Saturday, went to Andrew's graduation party and slept over...much fun!! (Even though Steph fell asleep at like 10 ><)

-Sunday, came home, did stuff, then picked up Stephanie to go to Carly's pool party! Much fun also!! Slept over...anime!!

- Today, came home from her house....and waiting to have a BBQ!

And thats about it o.o I don't really feel like going into detail ^^;; Too tired xP
 
 
Current Mood: drained
Current Music: Sugar, We're Goin' Down - Fall Out Boy
 
 
squ33k_t0y
25 May 2005 @ 04:24 pm
I love my friends so much ^^
 
 
Current Mood: loved
 
 
squ33k_t0y
24 May 2005 @ 01:19 pm
I need to learn to let him go.
But I don't want to forget about him.
About everything we had--even if it makes me sad.

I just want him to be happy...

I guess I wasn't doing that for him.
Or else it wouldn't be like this.

I want to talk to him.
I don't want to stop talking.

I'm so confused.

I'm scared.

I hate this..
 
 
Current Mood: depressed
 
 
squ33k_t0y
16 May 2005 @ 09:27 pm
1. Total number of films I own on DVD/video:
O.O Uhh..alot?! 71 that are actually mine...but i dont watch most of them ^^;;
2. The last film I bought:
Film? o.o The Nightmare Before Christmas =P just DVD: Koi Kaze
3. The last film I watched:
Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy
4. Five films that I watch a lot or that mean a lot to me:
The Nightmare Before Christmas - such an awesome movie...enough said XD
The Lion King - this hs been my favorite Disney movie for like...ever! I love it do death, but I really don't know why ^^;;
The Cat Returns -such a good Studio Gibli movie...and Baron is so cool!!!! *-*
Monty Python: and the Holy Grail - such an awesome random British movie!! XD It's so hillarious...you must watch =D
Battle Royale - just plain coolness...*-*
5. Which five people are you passing the baton onto? And why?
1. [info]saviorarucard because I want too see the Answers he would give
2. [info]zein_kun because he never updates anymore ><
3. [info]xbl00dyta3rsx because you're never on anymore...FF11 has taken your liiiiiiiiife o.o *walks to your house*
and um...no one else really gets on anymore ^^;; i have no friends XP
 
 
Current Mood: full
Current Music: This Could Be Love - Alkaline Trio
 
 
squ33k_t0y
09 May 2005 @ 05:00 pm
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAT!!!!!!!!!!

Love you! ^^
 
 
Current Mood: happy